THE DAY I OWNED MY BEAUTY, THE BIRTH OF VENUSHere’s the thing about Owning your Beauty. It is a choice and a practice and a journey. I have been walking this road for a long time. Kind Eyes is born from my own Beauty wounding. I truly believe that Divine Beauty is Absolute and Unconditional…but to LIVE that…..to walk in the world really OWNING it, that is another story. So the story I want to tell with these photos is how I decided to stop arguing for my limitations and just surrender to my Beauty.November 11, 2012…. South Beach, Florida…I was in the land of the Sister Goddesses, enveloped by their love and admiration. I was bombarded by it really. It was like having a giant mirror of gorgeousness blinding me in the sun! You know that quote about “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?” (see full quote below) Well these Sister Goddesses midwifed it out of me….if all these amazing gorgeous talented and fabulous women are telling ME that this is how THEY see ME, who am I to argue? So with neither a lack of humility or false modesty, I decided to step into living the reality of who THEY were seeing in me: a Leader, a Rock Star, an amazing photographer, a Goddess. Just like that.Kate Goldsborough of Beauty is a Decision was doing my hair and make up for this shoot and she was right in my face. She kept saying ‘do you even know how fucking gorgeous you are?” Well actually no, I didn’t. Because a man never got in my face and said that to me….EVER.Kate laid down the gauntlet. Did I really want to wait another 8, 10, 20 years to own it? The answer is no, I do not. I do not want to waste any more time feeling less than. And I started telling myself how fucking gorgeous I am, with enthusiasm and delight….and guess what Ladies? Men haven’t been able to stop telling me how gorgeous I am ever since…when we change within, so does the world without. And yes, I still obsess about my sagging neck or whatever sometimes, but I am working on loving it too. To embrace ALL of ME. Self-love is a journey and a process.
I have been photographed a lot this year. On the other end of the spectrum from these glamour shots…my dear friend Noel, a French photographer, was doing a series inspired by Women who Run with the Wolves and he was photographing his women friends as wild women – we are talking no make up, no retouching, no posing (well he couldn’t quite break me of that, lol). I am sharing some of the out takes here, some that I love and some that really challenged me to love myself FOR REAL.Because as a photographer, I know that I can look Movie Star Gorgeous with the right lighting and angle and all that, but there are other angles and can I look at those sides of myself and still be kind…it is harder to do, and I can’t say I feel as beautiful in these images as I do in the glamour ones, but I am willing to see what my friend sees, that my body is AMAZING and aren’t we all tired of seeing perfect airbrushed bodies and how about a little cellulite….so I am YESSING it ALL here.As I step into this new year, leaving behind the weight of a lifetime of self loathing and judgement and stepping into a new reality…the future looks really Beautiful from here!!! One Lifetime Ladies, LOVE YOURSELVES!!!!“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” ~ Marianne Williamson Glamour shots ©Liz Linder Styled by the amazing Kate Goldsborough! Wild Woman portraits © Noel Manalili